I have passed 2 examinations; there is one more final on
24-th, if for any reason I find myself weak I shall take it in
At present we think of summer holiday: the question is very difficult
for wherever I am I should continue playing the piano, therefore
there comes an idea to remain even in Petersburg and for the sake
of success of an undertaking to postpone meeting relatives till
the next year; or for me to stay here, for Maleyka to go. In a
word, all this will be found out when I know how much money I
have on hands. Therefore I ask you to send me all I have, thus
if I still owe to Sarabski do not deduct, let it remain for me
because of enormous need in money. After reception of money we
shall leave, or decide to stay. Therefore I ask you very much
to send money quicker because of set deadlines of 26 and 28 for
apartment and job payments.
Now, I may stay, and then we cannot meet for a while. So I ask
you to express your opinion concerning further work from September.
We have spent this year with no hardship due to what I have an
opportunity to be composedly engaged in my field. Therefore I
entered Conservatoire. For all of this I am obliged solely to
your sincere desire to help me. For the sake of pursuance of this
desire you sacrificed your comfort and health. Whether I shall
be able to thank you it remains to be seen. From all the heart
I wish you to spend summer in full quietude and to have a salutary
holiday. As to the perspective I fully leave it to your inclination
toward this action. I cannot ask you about the greater thing,
because you have made too much for me. Ulterior steps depend simply
on your desire to be engaged in it, if you wish, do continue,
if you feel full apathy, then leave it, we shall think up something
another. We can start serious musical job, when I graduate from
Conservatoire. By the way, I want to inform you that I am not
going to write anything new over 2 years, for gravity of my lessons
and requirements of Conservatoire make me integrally unable to
do such a job. Besides, by conservatoire rules I have no the right
to act as a composer while I am a student of Conservatoire (let
it be our secret).
So, with impatience wait I for the answer and money, after reception
of those I shall write to you, and I may come and see you. We
bow to Badush and Jamulki, bow to everybody and to Khanafush who
I shall write the letter to.
On May 16, 1914
Đ.S. I have forgotten to ask you about money to be sent by telegraph, because we have no money at all, Maleyka showed me the last rubles.
1, 2, 3.With May in mind
4. Khanafush is Mamed-Khanafi Teregulov's endearing name for shortness.